SILENCE

what if all I can do is giving you space you’re craving so much. the silence to let you heal your wounds. to learn how to love yourself again, every single inch of your body and mind. you are loved, by so many souls, all you have to do is open your beautiful eyes and see. I see you. I hear you. I feel you. my love for you is deeper than the endless indigo ocean. your laugh is creating a smile on my face that will last until we need some light in the darkness. I am here, even if I am not around. I will be your wings, to guide you only when you need me the most. I am letting you go because I love you so much. I was hoping that I could be the answer you are looking for, that I was the one who could help you get out of the cage inside your head. but every time I try to break you out, I am dragging myself further into your numbness prison. every attempt takes a longer time to recover. I am willing to do whatever it takes, but it seems like all my actions never have a long effect on you. perhaps I am trying not enough, or in a way that will never reach you.

silence is a gift and a curse at the same time. it is created by the most powerful source, to reconnect with yourself again. a moment without any noise, there is just you, your breath, your heart beating on the rhythm of the rivers, my brain fogs are slowly clearing up while the clouds disappear in the sky. a small shiver of sunlight is breaking through the clouds. light warming up my body. the wind is whispering golden words inside my ears, you are loved. my heart is overflowing with gratitude. waterfalls of tears have come to there end. I feel that this is the time of shifting my emotions into a process of truly experiencing what they are, so I can understand the rebirth is a sign of accomplishing your transformation. creating wings not for escaping the crowds, just to find a balance between listening and talking. discover my wanderlust cravings, to learn to go somewhere else without the need to escape I finally start living without the feeling of being trapped inside m own mind filled with hopelessness, anger, sadness, and fear. I wanna feel everything again, but I am still looking for the solution. it is a long and difficult road, but all I can do is keep going no matter what.